I feel {sort of} productive today. I spent the entire afternoon in the dining table studying math and here I still am working so hard yet accomplishing..nothing. I am, without a doubt the most inept person when it comes to Additional math. I'm onto my second cup of coffee for the night, and the third piece of buttered toast and onto my first nutella-ed bread. I am eating and eating and eating and I have completely lost my will to become skinny and thin.
I can't focus on any more than one thing at a time. If I'm studying, then I'm not losing weight. If I'm losing weight, then I'm not studying. Its fucking ridiculous. I'm sick of my reflection I've had enough of feeling too much fat clinging onto my bones..but I'm not going to deprive myself entirely of food it never works out in the end. I'm never gonna lose enough weight like this.
Its times like this I wish I was fucked up enough to be able to starve myself for days on end.
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