THEYDON'THAVETOUNDERSTANDYOU/BESTILL.

I don't understand why adults always assume the worst of me. I don't deliberately create trouble, i just end up in the worst circumstances sometimes. Im really beyond fed up but i'll get over it. What do I care if they believe me or not. I know I didn't do anything wrong. And if my mama taught me anything it's that I shouldn't care what people think as long as I didnt do anything wrong.

I really ought to start studying harder, my o level pre-lims start next week. Really hope I'd be able to do okay. Really need to get all my teachers, my parents off my case. Sigh.

Sheela just called and told me that my choir darlings scored a silver for this year's SYF hahah really happy for them-they definitely deserved it.

Im doing a really good job at pretending I dont hear what people are saying about me. Acting like there's nothing wrong, as always.

IWON'TMAKEASOUND/SOYOUDON'TWAKE.

Photos: All mine.

I don't want to hurt anymore. I don't want to carve new lines on my arm i don't want any more sewing needles under my skin i don't want these bruises but I'd rather have all that than your words...I can't stand you hating me.

I never meant for things to go this far. I never meant to cause you so much hurt but i don't know how to fix things anymore.

I want to know what its like to wake up happy. I want to know what its like to not be scared of you. I want things to go back to the way they were, when you still loved me, when you were still happy.

(-) on the test.